Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.

                                                     Jane Austen

Thank Jane... you are so freakin right....

Soo... I finally got an email address... post yur contact info so I can write you!!

essence_of_perfection@yahoo.com

What am I supposed to do?

I'm miserable... and all I see is more misery.

All I have done is loved... now when is it my turn to get selfless love in return? 

ITS... wow.

I'm happy I'm home... but what's gonna happen when I see him?

Humm... I suppose that last post was something of a downer... I am trying this new thing were I let my feelings out instead of getting mad and doing irrational things....

Speaking of which... today I got pretty upset.  I then forgot about it, and now it is bothering me again.  So yes... I seriously WILL try to explain... but it's like describing the taste of meatloaf...

So I try so hard to get things right... but everytime I think I got it I coming up short... this goes in everything really... Kristi wants a fair shake!  If I put in the work to learn something is it too much to ask that I make a freakin good grade on the test??  And if I try my best in a relationship (this is not JUST the DJ thing, guys) doesn't make sense that I should reap the benefit of that which I sew??

Just a little food for thought...

                                                        ugh!  Tastes like doo-doo.....